~noted for hana

Dear,

Since you always like to talk about movies, I would like to recommend you to watch a new sitcom here in Malaysia. It is a new phenomena---UPIN & IPIN. You should try and watch it. It is really fun and a sweet movie....Have fun watching it!

Upin & Ipin - Dugaan

Upin & Ipin - Terawih

Upin & Ipin - Esok Puasa

Upin & Ipin - Ep. 5 & 6

*credit to hana, ajar aku wat link nih.. ekekekeke

KHIANAT!!!!!!!!!!!

Aku bengang. Memang bengang giler sampai aku da xleh nk nangis @ berkata ape2. Aku rasa dikhianati. Kawan makan kawan. Sepatutnye 'ko' rasa bangga sbb aku percaya ko sgt. Itu maknenya 'ko' aku anggap sahabat yang dipercayai. Bile 'ko' wat aku cani, 'ko' wat aku rase cam nak bunuh 'ko' aje. 'Ko' wat aku nk menyumpah agar 'ko' x idup selamat & senang di dunia & akhirat. Dan secara x langsung 'ko' tambah dosa aku & menimbulkan hilang sudah rase percaya aku pada kawan2 aku yg lain. Kenapa 'ko' sanggup wat aku cani?? Aku x sangka sebab DUIT ko sanggup khianat kawan 'ko' sendiri! Bukan ke aku yg selalu bagi 'ko' pinjam duit bila kala 'ko' da pokai? Bukan ke aku yg slalu blanje 'ko' makan bila kala 'ko' blom dapat gaji? Ceritanya bermula begini..
Pada 16hb Oct yg lepas, lebey kurg pas sembahyang maghrib, aku selak2 handbag aku. Aku amik wallet. Kira2 wit raya yg aku nk bg kak yin mintak tolong dia bank in kat ASB aku. Tapi, aku TERperasan sumthin'. Erk~ salah satu kad bank *** aku xd. Al-kisahnye aku ade 2-3 kad bank yg aktif. Dan aku memang jarang giler gune kad bank *** aku nih. Last skali aku withdraw 6hb Oct utk bayar wit umah aku. Puas dah aku geledah bilik. Siap aku kemas laci lg. Tp, x jumpa. Aku kol customer service bank ***, aku suh dorg block. Aku tanye ade transaksi x... dorg ckp xleh nk detect. Kne pg bank *** kat cawangan yg aku wat. Aku x puas ati lagi. Aku panggil abang & mak dtg bilik aku. Mntk tolong dorg carikan gak. Risonye dlm pala aku xleh nk ckp lah. Allah jer yg tau. Malam tuh, aku mntk pertolongan Allah, supaya bg aku ketenangan. Tp, aku tetap tido x lena. Sebab, dlm acc bank *** tuh, ade dlm a few thousand arr gak. Seb bek wit kawin aku simpan kat kad bank len.
Esoknye...
Nk dijadikan cite, aku kuar lambat. Mls tol nk g keje. Rase cam terus nk g bank. Tp, bank bkk lambat plak. Dak2 opis ajk aku pegi IIUM Gathering. Hurm, ok jek ar. Bank pon blom bkk lagi. Alaaaaa... tgu prof dato' (rector) pon lme, so ceremony x on lagi mkn pon x leh arr lagi. Xp2.. yg penting isi perut dolu. Alu cube pk positive kat sini. Hurm, rasenya lau kad tu tercicir xd masalah kot. Org yg jumpa tu, bkn tau pon pin no aku. Even, bf aku pon pon x tau pin no kad aku.

Lebeh kurg kol 12pm baru aku pegi. Aku ajk si polan nih teman aku pegi bank. Sampai akt bank, aku suh update buku aku. Then, wat kad baru. Erk~ Ya Allah.. ade transaction arr semalam. Gosh! Org tuh kuarkan wit aku sebanyak RM3K. Kuang ajau! Aku mengucap panjang + istighfar. Org bank tuh cakap, musthail. Sape yg tau no pin awak. Aku diam. Bf & family aku mmg xtau. Malah dorg x amik tau pon. Aku suh org bank cek, transaction tuh di wat kat mne. Org bank cakap kat Rawang. Last aku withdraw pon kat Rawang. Tercicir pas aku kuarkan wit tuh ke? Aku pening pala. Pening sangat. Tp, bile aku ingatkan balik, 7hb oct aku ade persan lg yg kad tu masih berada dlm wallet aku. So, bermakna nih bukan cicir tp kes curi. LAHABAU punye pencuri. Org bank suh aku wat report. AKu pon ajak si polan wat report kat setapak police station. Baru aku hingat. Aku pernah mntk tolong si polan nih utk kuarkan wit aku dolu. Masa aku wat police report, aku da pasan muke si polan ni len mcm. Tp, aku masih bersangka baik lg. Sb, aku percaya dia. Dia kawan aku. Xkn dia sanggup wat aku cani. Sedangkan aku sendiri x sanggup nk khianat kawan aku sendiri. :(

Otw back tu opis, aku ade ckp kat si polan nih.. "Lau org yg aku kenal buat cani kat aku, aku x mintak bnda lain.. cume, tolong pulangkan wit aku jek. Banyak tuh RM3K. Tu wit utk kawin skali tuh..." Si polan nih diam jek. Sampai kt opis, kakak2 opis nih bertanye kat aku. Aku pon cerita lah. T'masuklah cite tentang aku pernah mntk tolong dr si polan nih utk kuarkan wit aku dolu. Nak dijadikan cite lg, terungkitlah kisah wit pantry yg ilang 2-3 kali & 2 laptop ilang lam bilik AV Room yg b'kunci. Dorg ckp mesti keje org dlm. Dorg sebenarnye da lame suspect si polan nih, tp xd bukti so dorg pon senyap jek. AKu makin tertekan dibuatnya. Aku xtau nk ckp pe lg lau btol si polan tu yg curi kad aku. Lau btol aku pelik. Pelik bagaimana seorg sahabat yg sanggup mengkhianati kawan sendiri semata2 kerana DUIT. Terus aku teringat akn perubahan pada muka si polan masa dia menemani aku kat police station. Argh!!! Tension.

Lebih kurang kol 1pm, aku gerak pegi Rawang. Sampai jek kat Rawang, ujan lebat gile. Dugaan btol. Aku sabo lagi. Lol~ cari parking pon susah giler nih. Jauh aku parking. Aku redah ujan. Sampai kat bank ***, aku tunjuk report polis aku & ckp aku nk tgk CCTV. Dorg suh aku tggu. Ade agak2 lam 1/2 jam aku kne tgu. Dugaan lagi. Manager bank tuh sampai baru aku dipanggil. Manager tuh ckp, aku x berhak tgk CCTV dorg. Ade procedure. Mane aku tau. Even polis pon x layak. ABih tuh ape gune CCTV tu. Dia ckp CCTV tuh sebenarnye dipasang utk BANK SECURE only. Ceyy~ Hnagin aku dibuatnya. Saat nih baru air mata aku meleleh deras cam ujan lebat kt luar time tuh. Aku kol abang. Mengadu dengan dia. Aku bertambah sedey bile dia xd dengan aku time aku perlukan dia. Tp, aku xleh bersikap pentingkan diri sendiri. AKu tau dia tengah keje. Nk pegi kat aku pon payah sb ujan lebat. Aku kne pegi balai polis rawang & mntk advise dr dorg. Pai kat keta, tayar kete plak bocor. Ya Allah, hebat btol dugaanMu di hari jumaat ini. Aku tekad, aku bwk keta aku slow2 pegi balai polis. Dlm ujn lebat2 tuh gak aku berlari masuk dlm balai polis. Dorg suh aku berjumpa dengan IO (Investigation Officer) utk bkk kertas siasatan baru aku bleh tgk CCTV bank tuh. Al-kisahnya.....

Aku pon fix appointment dgn IO tuh esok kat IPD selayang. Aku trs balik dgn tayar keta bocor & banjir dgn slumber. Sepanjang perjalanan balik ke rumah, aku menangis x benti. Dugaan hari ini btol2 bagi aku keinsafan yg amat sgt di atas dosa2 yg pernah aku lakukan dulu. Allah skang bayar cash. Aku nk sangat tau siapa yg amik wit aku tuh. Tp, ati aku kuat mengatakan si polan tuh yg amik. Sb, dia the only one yg tau no pin kad bank *** aku. Dan, aku perasan suda perubahan muka dia ms temankan aku kat balai polis setapak.

Kol 4pm lebey, dak opis kol aku. Dia cakap si polan tuh pon xd. Hurm.. xp2 aku sabo lg. Aku nk tggu ari senin samada dia msk @ x. Mlm tu, mama (mak abang) ajk aku pegi jumpa Auntie **** utk tgk2 sapa yg amik. Aku kurg percaya bnda2 nih tp aku sekadar mencuba sb aku rase sedih sgt lau btol si polan tuh yg amik kad aku. Mak aku pon gelak jek bile aku ckp nk jumpa auntie ****. Biarlah ape dorg nk ckp. Janji aku puas ati. Seb bek mama nk temankan aku. Pai kat umah auntie ****, aku ckp arr yg kad bank aku ilang & ade org kuarkan wit sebanyak RM3K. Aku bg limau purut 2 biji kat auntie **** (dia suh aku bwk). Bile auntie **** asapkan aje limau purut tuh, dia ckp kad aku bkn ilang kat umah tp kat opis. Dia ckp kwn rapat ko sendiri yg amik. Mama tanye kat auntie, "pompuan ke?". Auntie pandang nuke aku & dia ckp, "LAKI. BUDAK NI TENGAH KESEDAPAN MENCURI KAT OPIS TUH."
Ya Allah. Aku bukan nk caye tp, secara logik cane auntie **** tau aku rapat dgn dak laki kat opis aku? Bile aku nk tanye lebih ttg dak laki tuh auntie **** ckp xleh bgtau. Nanti syirik. Erk~ ye ar kot. Pantang dia arr tuh. Balik pas anta mama, aku blik uma. Aku kol si polan tuh. X angkat. 2 kali aku kol. Pastu aku sms dia cani.

"Slm. *****, sori aku bukan nk tuduh ko. Tp, ko sorg je yg tau no pin kad aku. Org len xtau. Molok sendri pon x amik tau. Lau ko yg amik, just pulangkan wit n aku akn aggp bnda ni xpnh berlaku. AKu jnji. Sori lau terasa..."

Si polan nih diam jek. X reply pon sms aku. Lau tol dia x wat, mesti dia reply sms aku n ckp dia sedih @ bengang sb aku tuduh dia. Tp, dia diam gak. Lau dia admit & janji nk pulangkan wit, aku x perlu jmpa IO esk. Tp, dia ttp diam gak.

18hb Oct 2008
Kol 1pm aku pai IPD gombak kat selayang. Jumpa Tn. Nasarudin. Aku cite dr A-B. So, lebeh kurg 2jam pastu, kertas siasatan kes nih dgn rasminya da dibuka. So, lau btol ar si polan nih yg amik, ble da ade bukti, lantak 'ko' arr lau kne jail @ x. Suda hilang rs belas kasihan aku pada 'ko'. Tp, yg pasti ble da ade bukti & mmg si polan nih yg salah aku nk jmpa mak pak dia. Sb, si polan ni slalu ckp yg mak pak dia byk wit. aku nk wit RM3K aku. Aku tau mesti korg rs x ptt lau kau mntk kat mak dia, tp, itu wit kawin aku ar. Xtau arr bg korg cane tp yg pasti bg aku RM3K tuh byk. Banyak sgt.

p/s: Buat kwn2 sume, jadikan kisah aku nih sebagai teladan. Walaupon family sendiri jangan percaya mereka. Kerana duit sesiapa saja akn hilang pertimbangan. Dan, doakan utk aku agar diberi kesenangan, murah rezeki & tabah dalam segala rintangan. Aminn..

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Assalammualaikum..
Rasanya masih blom t'lewat lagi utk aku ucap Salam Eid Mubarak & Maaf Zahir & Batin wat sume yang mengenali aku.
Sblom aku mula nk bla..bla..bla.. aku nk mintak maap kat Hana.. hehe.. aku janji dgn Hana aku nk update blog sempena hari raya special 4 her.. tp, aku TERmungkir janji. X sempat arr Cik Hana ooi.. Penat. X henti2 aku bsh pinggan+kms uma. huhu

Ni arr sebahagian family aku. Yg xd cume Abg Ewa & family je sbb thn nih dia beraya kt uma mnentua dia kt Batu Pahat..
Cik Hana, hehehe.. ni arr ghupe biskut cornflake madu yg aku wat. hurm walaupon ko lihat cam besa jek.. cam simple jek.. tp, sebenornye sedap tau. hukhuk

Yg ni xyh cite arr kan.. hehe. Ikhlas dari aku & Lino;
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN.
WE MISS U SO MUCH! DON'T 4GET TO COME BACK TO M'SIA NEX YER ..hikhik

p/s: Hana, sowi sgt aku x sempat nk amik gambo lauk pauk ar. Abah aku msk aym merah (favourite org ramai nih), kari daging, nsi impit & soto. No wori, yg penting aku da tulun makan kan utk ko skali tau. huhu Rye ke3 aku n family aku nk g b'cuti. Sj jln2 ke melaka. Org len pg beraya kami pegi b'cuti plak. Xp.. raye kn sebulan.. hehehe

Emosi

Ahlan Wa Sahlan Ya Ramadhan..

Hai sume.. Aku nak b’cerita tentang emosi kali ini. Emosi wit ‘under control’ & ‘lost control’. Seperti yang kite sedia maklum, sebagai pompuan aku mengaku ‘pompuan lebih beremosi dari lelaki’. Anyone agree plz raise ur’ hand. Hehe..

Aku search maksud ‘Emosi’ dari Internet. Ini yang aku jumpa.

Emosi adalah adaptasi evolusi, kerana meningkatkan kemampuan organisme untuk mengalami & mengevaluasi lingkungannya dan kemudian menambah kemungkinan hidup dan berproduksi dengan m’persiapkan rencana sederhana untuk berbagai tingkah yang diperlukan, seperti mendekati atau menjauhi objek yang (tidak) bole dicerna, b’saing bersama organisme lain atau lari jika organisme itu terlalu kuat (kemarahan vs. ketakutan), dan membentuk atau kehilangan ikatan kooperatif berdasarkan pada altruisme berbalasan (kebanggaan vs. kesedihan) dengan organisme lain.

Kata "emosi" diturunkan dari kata bahasa Perancis, émotion, dari émouvoir, 'kegembiraan' dari bahasa Latin emovere, dari e- (varian eks-) 'luar' dan movere 'bergerak'. "Motivasi" juga diturunkan dari movere.

Jenis2 emosi:
• Cinta
• Perasaan
• Bangga
• Sifat
• Benci
• Terkejut
• Takut
• Suasana hati

Aku sebenarnya hanya nak berkongsi dengan korg sume tentang emosi. Org ckp, pompuan lau sdg ‘period’ a.k.a. uzur, emosinya terganggu. More sensitive maybe. Tapi, bg aku itu sume terpulang pada individu itu sendiri bagaimana nak mengawalnya. Ape yang cube aku ingin kongsikan di sini ialah emosi dengan teman istimewa.

Ble emosi kite t’ganggu, org cakap biasa jek pon kite leh terasa. Lebeh2 lagi lau org yang kite sayang tegur. Ble aku nak bermanja2 dengan ‘dia’, tiba2 ‘dia’ cam x suke. Cam rimas. Aku da kecik ati da. Padahal mungkin masa tu ‘dia’ penat sangat ke, tgh pikir sumthing ke. Sebab aku tau ‘dia’ cukup suke kalau aku bermanja2 dgn dia. Aku bersikap kebudakan. Mungkin masa yang kurang sesuai. Walhal lau dipikirkan balik, ‘dia’ tego kite sbb ‘dia’ sayang kite. Aku ni slalu pentingkan diri sendiri kot. Tapi, masa ni juga, kite rasa ‘dia’ cam da x sayang kite lagi arr.. ‘dia’ da berubah arr.. ‘dia’ ade pompuan lain arr.. ‘dia’ mungkir janji arr… Tapi, jauh kat sudut ati ‘dia’, aku tau ‘dia’ sayang aku sgt. Sume org pon camtu aku rasa. Kadang2 aku rasa kesian tgk ‘dia’ kena layan aku yang emosi tgh x btol. Layankan aje karenah aku yang gile nih. So, wajarkah kite ikutkan aje emosi kite yg x btol tuh? Umo semakin banyak sepatutnya kite semakin matang. Ble da semakin matang, berfikir secara logik baru kite bole kawal emosi kite. Ble kite leh kawal emosi kite, baru kite ‘kurang’ gado dengan teman kite. Ini cume pendapat aku.

‘Dia’ slalu ucap sayang kat aku. ‘Dia’ slalu belai aku. Tapi, dia x reti nak tunjuk kasih syg dia depan org ramai. Kasih syg yang aku mksdkan x semestinya kiss aku depan org ramai.. cukup dari segi tingkah laku @ tutur kata yang bole buat sume org dalam dunia nih tau yang ‘dia’ sayang aku sangat. Tapi, x bererti ‘dia’ x sayang aku lau dia x tunjuk depan org kan? Kalau emosi tengah x btol, x terkawal benda kecik nie pon bole jadi isu tau. Sebab tuh, aku nak share topik ni dengan sume org. X kesah lew laki ke pompuan.. Aku nak kite sume (yang baca blog ni) berjanji dengan diri kite sendiri supaya belajar mengawal emosi. Belajar jangan cepat marah.

Aku selalu cuba untuk mengawal emosi aku supaya tak marah2 ‘dia’ (xspecially ble emosi t’ganggu). Believe it or not. Aku sebenarnya xd niat pon nak marah2 ‘dia’. Semakin aku tahan xnk marah, semakin aku nak marah. Tapi, diingatkan di sini, marah yang aku tekankan di sini bukannya marah sangat pon. Marah yang ade batas. Xd arr sampai hilang respect kat ‘dia’. Ibarat marah2 sayang gitu. Ahaks!!

Kepada ‘dia’ (xtau ar samada dia da b’peluang baca blog aku ni, tp aku da penah bgtau), aku nak ‘dia’ tau yang aku sayang ‘dia’ sangat. Aku nak kawin dengan ‘dia’. Nak idup bahagia di dunia & akhirat dengan ‘dia’. Nak abihkan sepanjang hayat dengan ‘dia’. Aku pernah buat kesilapan dalam p’hubungan yang lepas, jadi aku rasa ‘dia’ adalah pilihan aku yang tepat. Insya Allah.. (doakan utk aku ye..)

“APABILA PEMIKIRAN DIKUASAI KEMARAHAN, PERTIMBANGAN SEMAKIN MENGHILANG”

p/s: Utk kawan aku si “H”.. post ni sebenarnye utk ko. Bagi ko paham. Aku letak cite ttg aku supaya ley jadi panduan.. (mane tau). Kite ni manusia. Nobody is perfect. So, tolong kawal emosi ye. Kesian tgk ‘org’ tu asik kne marah jek..huhu

Miss Him So Much..

I don't know why, I am thinking of him. Yeah.. "Him". The one I call "A bestfriend.." The last time we IM-ed, he told me that he'll getting married.. Somewhere in August. Jealous? No! I am not. I do feel funny though & lil' sad. I just don't understand why people always misunderstand the meaning of BESTFRIEND - especially between a girl and a guy. Haven't they heard about "platonic relationship"..? duh~

A few years back..(around 2004), I had a good friend. A very good friend. My officemate. During lunch time, break time and even after office hours.. we always hang out together. Let us called him "A". "A" has girlfriend and I also has a boyfriend at that time (shud be my ex now). My boyfriend understands the relationship between me and "A". He doesn't mind and gives me his full of trust on me. But, the problem here is, "A" girlfriend. Does she knows everytime I hang out with "A", he is always talking about his girlfriend. Everything..!! And, I'm as his bestfriend and a good listener, I don't mind. Too bad is, they're always fighting because of me. She's been so.. so.. I mean so jealous with me. I'm never doing wrong with "A". We're just good friends. As I know, everytime they're quarrel the girl is always bringing up my matter.WTH~~ Automatically it's make me and "A" feel very disappointed and in dilemma.

Time goes by.. month by month, their relationship have become worst. But, believe it or not my friendship with "A" is getting stronger. Everytime "A" complaints about his gf, i'll just sit and keep quiet. No comment. I telling him, "If you love her, get rid of being with me. Follow whatever she says". "A" didn't agree. "A" said, if we are honest in our relationship and never do wrong, we don't have to be scared. I pray and hope his gf will understand with our situation.. one day.

A year later, aku benti keje. I know, "A" gf must be happy if she knows i'm no longer with that company. The good news is (for me), we still keep in touch through YM and handphone. We never meet. It's really hard because "A" gf always using 'Friend Finder' to find "A" located (one of facilities in M**** mobile). Jerk!!

For me, there's no point to have a relationship without trust and honest. Agree? One day, "A" called me. He said, his gf scolded him because he is still keeping my number in his handphone. Gosh!! And, might be his gf want to call me and asked why I keep on calling "A". Is that wrong? We never meet. Just call and say hi to each other. That's all. Does she know that "A" loves her very much. Never cheated on her. At the same time, I feel so pity with "A". That night, u know what happen. Jeng! Jeng! Jeng! "A's" future mother in law called me. I was nervous at that time. I was just thinking that I did not do anything wrong so, i just keep cool.
Then, I tell the truth to her mother.
"Auntie, sori lau pe yang akan saya cakap ni buat auntie terasa hati. Biar saya terus terang di sini. Saya dan "A" hanya berkawan baik. Lgpn saya ade boyfriend. Dan akan berkahwin (masa ni arr..). Sepanjang saya berkawan dengan "A", dia selalu memuji anak auntie. Malah ada niat nak berkahwin dengan anak auntie. Saya xnk cakap banyak. Cume 1. Cakap dengan anak auntie, lau nak hubungan dia dan "A" kekal sampai bila2, kena ada kepercayaan & kejujuran. Itu yang "A" pegang selama ini". (Fuh! Panjang giler aku cakap!!)

After that, I called A. I told him that I love him so much (as a friend only). So, if you love our friendship, don't call me anymore. You have a gf who loves u so much. Take care of her. (If I not mistaken, that was the last time I called him).

Skang da August. Aku pon xtau dia da kawin ke blom. Yg pasti lau dapat kad nt, aku tetap xnk pegi gak... Takut nt x pasal2 dia leh gado dgn gf dia tuh.. takut aku! (da jd bini arr ms nih)

Apa yang boleh aku lakukan dari sini berdoa agar "A" and his future wife akan kekal ke akhir hayat + akhirat. And, hope that his gf can understand WHAT FRIENDSHIP IS ALL ABOUT... WHAT IS THE MEANING OF FRIENDSHIP....

p/s: Baru lepas chat dengan "A" semalam. Dia dah kahwin. Dia cakap wife dia masih fobia bile dengan nama aku. Huh~
Moga korang epi ending sampai ke akhir hayat. Insya Allah.. Amiinnn..

People around me...

Hey guys..
What's for today?! *Thinking hard..*.. Erm, let it be a general topic this time. Actually, there is so much I want to say here. Gosh!! I need more ideas. idea..idea..

It's already August. I am going to be 27 on this coming December. Time passing by... and *poof!! I'm getting older each year..duh!~..lolx! I have seen types of people around me. As a start..OFFICE~*

Politic in the office..*rollin eyes*..The bosses, expecting compliments from the subordinates, and there is a time where those bosses looking for compliments from the superiors~wth is that!..*getting emo* ..but that not only applies to the bosses..it also applies to the employees that is a lil bit lower than the bosses (like me..*rollin eyes*) compliment 'the bos's to get promotion..duh!~ silly~ and yes, I know I am nobody..but that doesn't mean that MY opinion is useless!~ well there are some bosses think they are superb..and opinions from the subordinates are bulls**t..but hey! not all of 'em are like that..^_^ (AMTM..my current supervisor a.k.a the boss - thousands thanks to her for being a understanding Boss..a nice one ^_^) Ehmm..I haven't finish yet >.<>die-hard-fan a.k.a 'kipas-susah-mati punye'<- ..lolx..I bet u guys understand the meaning of it ^_^ the 'I'll do anything for the boss to gain good name..etc..' type of people..The Malay calls it, 'kipas worang punye'.. Too many types of people in such a small office..selfish, 'die hard fan', plastics..etc..~*to name a few..*rollin eyes* Sometimes, I do wonder, why these people have to do such things..coz, as for me, its useless. I'd prefer to be sincere, in every perspective.. "Friends, they make life extra sweeter"..agree??..anyone raise your hand if you agree!! ^_^ Friends, they come and go, only true friend will stay with us, during the ups and downs..they will always be there..^_^ But sadly *wiping tears* I've once been back-stabbing by a very VERY close friend. It's hard for me to forgive her at first, but after a while, I'd realize, NOBODY IS PERFECT..~~ Like I said earlier, I am so busy right now.. and I mean VERY BUSY.. I know, some of my friends think I left them out and broke some of their promises..a few times I know and I admit it . But guys please, it's not my intention to break the promises..*sob sob* -->"Kawan yang memaafkan dan memahami adalah kawan yang sejati"..itulah pegangan aku<-- *~* To Xuxu & Nabil - Thanx for being a good listener and understand my situation..>.<

xuxu a.k.a. zuzu.. my lovely lil' sis yg nakal & sengal cam aku!! hak2.. mis u so much!!

lagi sorg adik syg.. sana nabil.. sini nabil.. sume nabil.. luv u so much adik.. wek~

Buat Hana;
"Sorry masa ko kawin, aku x dapat tolong banyak. Aku tolong apa yang terdaya saja. Tapi, aku puas ati malam sebelum hari persandingan, aku sempat pegi uma ko & tolong pe yang patut dgn Inang. Congratulations Hana.

Congratulations for both of u (manuel & hana) - (hana, jgn lupe bgtau schedule ko 4 nex yer.. aku nk kawin, ko & manuel mesti datag tau!!)

Part of my x-schoolmates during hana's wedding 9 Aug 2008
From left-Ain, me, Ateh & As

Bila sikap pentingkan diri sendiri menguasai diri, ia akan merosakkan hubungan yang sedia ada. Think!!

p/s:

MY INMORTAL

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
"cause my presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is juat too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'dfight away all of your fears
And I held your handthrough all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'd bound by the life that you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along....

Attached herewith one of my favourite song. It's really can make me cried...
(alamak.. emo arr plak.. skempos tol!! ceyy~~)