It is not that I don’t like “us”, in fact, I AM happy. But the thought of being married, scares me and gives me butterflies in my stomach *bitting nails*. I can’t imagine how my life would be after marriage. Me?? Being a wife?? Is it for real?? Shares everything in anyways, my sad, joy, pain etc..with a total stranger, although I’ve been knowing him for the past 14 years (1994-current). The first time I met him , still fresh in mind. As if it was just yesterday.. *blushing*
It was kind of hard to see him back then, because he was still studying at Politeknik Ungku Omar, Ipoh. There were times, when I passed by his house, I heard sounds (deep down, I know it was him) *blushing*. 1996, he finished his study and we were getting closer. On march the 3rd, 1996, we made the relation official. However, it did not last long, on 1998, we broke up.
7 years..no calls, no SMSes..nothing at all. except for bday wishers, we exchange bday wishes without fail..*chuckles* By the end of 2006, we met and start all over again (^^). (Orang kata LAU ADE JODOH X KE MANA..Insya Allah) Knowing each other better..-->inside out..upside down *grinning* And so, the relation evolved. Enough with the past. Those are the most precious memories in my..OUR life..*smile*
I’ll be 28 this year. I’ve gone through many phases in my life. And this is one of the phase that I need to learn *grinning* the day Molok asked me to be his wedded wife..*cheyyy~* until now, I keep on asking him..R U SURE?! I pray to Allah, ask for His help. Marriage is it not as easy as we say it is. Marriage means commitment. Committed to someone I call a hubby (who is a total stranger to me~!) how am I gonna do it? How am I gonna be? How am I gonna face it?? *bitting nails..AGAIN* there a lot more for me to learn, to adapt.. in being a good wife and a good mom.
11 days to go..i will carry a new title. A “WIFE” to a guy name Rozalino a.k.a. Molok. I’ve promised to myself. I want to be a good, a solehah wife and mother. InsyaAllah. To those who follows my blog, do pray for me..for my happiness..OUR happiness..(^^) I’ll sure be happy if only I can make M0lok happy..(^_^)
Kenangan masa bercuti ke Melaka bersama2 dgn family aku
After 7 years lost contact..~ Jalan2 ke Genting. End of 2006
* My 1st Luv.. Rozalino Rahmat.